I’ve been really getting into Mumford & Sons recently, & one of my favourite songs of theirs is ‘Not with haste’. It’s such a beautiful love song :). This is how the chorus goes:
These words describe quite well what I think true intimacy looks like. I believe intimacy is not so much about completing or complementing each other, but more about synergy. It’s a means by which someone more fully discovers who they really are, & who another person is, & they empower each other to really ‘be who they are’ just by being themselves. & as this takes place, the couple find true freedom. It makes me sad when I hear of relationships where someone is controlling or overly protective. Of course, a bit of jealousy is good in a relationship, as it means that you care enough about someone that you are committed to protecting the relationship. But relationships also need a lot of trust, otherwise they can become suppressing, when they are meant to be liberating. & when 2 people start to become who they were meant to be, & work together for a common purpose, then they’ll find a synergy that enables them to pursue their dreams until they come to pass.
To me, ‘We will run & scream; you will dance with me’ talks about an excitement, joy, closeness, etc. that cannot be contained, & has to be expressed in some physical form. Running can also refer to having energy to really go for it in our journey of life. You’ll need to both be going in the same direction in life to run together. “Love does not consist in gazing at each other but looking outward together in the same direction.” (Antoine de Saint-Exupery). I think it’s important to choose a partner who has the same purpose in life; the same heart-cry as us, so that he/she can spur us on & synergise with us on our journey (& vice versa). I guess a tandem bike is a good analogy- both people on the bike should have the same pedalling rhythm, otherwise one person holds the other back. If you cycle by yourself it’s a lot easier to pace yourself & to know how much you can push yourself without overdoing it. But on a tandem bike you need to communicate & be tune with each other, so that you can give your best without either of you burning out. I’ve only been on a tandem bike once, but I did find that we were able to go faster & it felt almost effortless (until we crashed & then a brake pad was rubbing against the wheel for the rest of the journey :P). When I say I’m looking for a man whose heart beats as one with mine, I can compare that to 2 people on a tandem pedalling together. My desire is to find someone who also lives for the pursuit of love, that we may help each other learn what it really means to love God & others.
At first I wasn’t sure about the last bit: ‘They’ll heal our scars; sadness will be far away’. I know that relationships can be extremely hard, & that even the best of relationships will have times of sadness & hurting. But I’ve realised that though relationships are the cause of many ‘scars’, the only thing that can bring true healing is God’s supernatural love. So though relationships can wound, if true love is there then healing also comes. & this love brings true joy & the ability to come alive even in times of sadness & hardship.
The part of the song that spoke to me the most was the last line: “I will love with urgency but not with haste.” What does that mean? I guess there have been many times when I loved with haste; when I’ve given my heart too quickly to someone before I knew them well enough. I now realise that hasty love is not real love, as real love cannot be rushed but grows gradually. Hasty love is based on emotions; you rush into things because your emotions are so high & you let them carry you away & take control. But real love will remain when the feelings go away, when times get tough, when you end up hurting each other, etc. & it’s only then when you discover whether or not you really do love someone. So as hard as is it, it’s much better to take things slow in relationships & not give your heart away too quickly. But that doesn’t mean we should hold back our love in any way. To ‘love with urgency’ is the essence of what I mean by the pursuit of love- to love love love with all that is within us; to try not to miss any opportunity to share our love with people. You never know, today may be your last chance to show your love to someone, as life is short & situations can change so suddenly. It’s so easy to take things for granted & forget how frail & fragile our lives are. I want my love to be reckless- to not count the cost but to keep giving without holding back. The only thing I wish to hold back is full intimacy, but only in order to save it for the one who I can fully love, & who can fully love me. Intimacy was created as a way of expressing love, but intimacy is not the same as love. We have to learn to truly love before intimacy can have real meaning.